In reply to giving 1st and last month's rent tomorrow...
Okay. We really need to talk too.
I know that you mean well, and I know you have the best heart when it comes to my best intentions, but you need to grow up when it comes to certain actions you partake in. I want to say that Karma is a bitch because I was the same personality you are and probably still am a little bit.
I lost a number of friends because of my behavior. I was snappy, immature, highly opinionated, and flat out reckless and didn’t really care at all about things I said. I had close to a hand full of friends that just stopped communication with me because they didn’t need the bullsh*t and drama. My friend Serena flat out told me that I just need to grow up and in time will realize my faults. A few years later (3-4 to be exact) I have rekindled my friendships with friends and admitted to being an asshole. But sometimes I guess it takes time to realize that your actions really do affect the people you care about. I hope this is making a little sense for you?
I love you and truly want our living situation to work; however like I’ve told you before I’m at such a good peaceful place in my life right now that I don’t want anything to disturb that factor. You are the only negative light shining in, and I don’t know how to fix it because I’ve called you out on it way too many times. Last night I actually wanted to kill you, and I’m sure nights like that will only continue. I’m not trying to threaten you, just feeling a strong sense of really wanting to shake the sh*t out of you! I know you realize when you’re wrong because you’ll sweeten up the deal in your own way, but the damage is done. I want our apartment to be a place of peace. It is after all a home that I am making for myself in the city that I don’t know as well as I think.
I’m limited on my close friends here and truly believe I have two that I consider my best that I find comfort in. You being one, and don’t even judge me on the other. Please understand that I love you and the caring person that you are, but you need to mature in some ways with me, or we’re going to have a very big problem. Our living situation will end up damaging our friendship and who knows how long that will take to repair. Please let’s try to figure out now before it gets to a point of being not okay.
Let me know.
Mk.
