NEW YEARS IN BRAZIL!

Véspera de Ano Novo is the most important day for the people of Brazil AKA NEW YEARS EVE! I am officially putting a stamp on Brazil, Rio de Janeiro for New Years. I was talking to my neighbor who goes there every year. He pretty much preached to me about it. The New Year celebrations are marked with numerous fireworks and crackers. Musical shows, concerts and other dance performances are the highlights of New Year celebrations in Brazil. The world famous Copacabana Beach in Rio de Janeiro is overcrowded with people all wearing white. Partying all day and night. I can't imagine celebrating a BETTER year, but with a better organized scenario! I celebrated The past two new year's in Miami, and look where that lead me to be no other than MIAMI. Who's to say if I spend it in Brazil, where I will end up? WHO IS WITH ME?

Taking the time to truly write

Funny...I am actually getting feedback from all of you on why I'm not updating my blog more often. Truth is I started writing a piece on LOVE that has been on my mind lately, and it has flowed into my Bio. I think I have finally found a peace of mind to tell my story on my life that most of you truly don't know. May help you have a better understanding of who I am, and how I got to be this overbearing personality that you all LOVE and hate at the same time! It does need work, and with time I know I will put every detail I can recall from early childhood to the present. I want to share my life, my mistakes, mt relationships, happiness, and pain whish is still a huge factor in my life. I think we all hide behind a certain exterior that needs to be shared. This is the beginning of my exterior...Please bare with me as this will take time to complete...and soon I will want to have a public's view point..on my life and my LOVE.

- Chapter 1 - The Beginning DRAFT

The one possible burden and question in my life will forever be what LOVE really means to me. I have this terrible view on it from such an early age, and have been desperately trying to figure out how to make sense of it.

You would think that one would have the chance to learn about LOVE from the two people that put you on this earth. Not my case. I believe I was created from pure LUST, as most of us find ourselves mistaking the two. You can’t understand my view unless you know about two people who were SUPPOSE to teach me some lessons, all in which I managed to teach myself, and still have the pleasure of learning.

My parents met is Austria, and after two weeks of having unbelievable chemistry decided to get married and “be together forever”. Three days after they were married, my mother received her Visa to come to the U.S. and coincidentally moved to Miami, FL leaving my father behind until he was able to receive his Visa. You can already see where the selfish factor comes into play…

My mother lived in Miami for about a year with her best friend and her family. Come to think of it my mother came to the U.S. in 1983, making her 25/26! Same as me….? Born in June/1957 so that sounds just about right. She communicated with her husband via letters and phone calls here and there, but continued living her life in Florida.

My father received his Visa after a full year and moved to New York City in 1984. He worked two jobs to help support my mother who was accustomed to a certain lifestyle so to say. They lived in a small studio in the West Village happily (or so I was told ) and decided to have a child…ME!

I was born on Easter Sunday on April 7, 1985. True Aries at heart! My character has been built on inherent voracious curiosity about the world and all of it’s nature. My sign has a fascinating combination of being a dreamer and doer, and wanting to improve the conditions of those around me. I am without ego and have the ability to understand the feelings of others. Even at an early age I can feel certain pain and resentment my parents had for one another. I couldn’t understand the actual statements, but knew it was all wrong.

Like most of us, there are certain memories that stick out about our adolescent age that can’t be eliminated in our mind. I remember the good moments my parents shared. Remember the two of them spending time with me at the park, zoo, beach play dates, amongst other outings that I am sure were typical for a child. My mother was a huge fan of dressing me up in obnoxious hot pink outfits with ruffles and making sure my hair was at a high point ponytail somewhere close to where my forehead started. I used to take the camera away from her and steer into taking photos of my parents. The photos always cut off between their waist line as it was my eye level. Not too bright to shoot up at their faces. Those photos are still hidden amongst the numerous albums my mother kept.

Sad to say to that I remember the fighting and lack there of a family at a very early age before elementary school started. This would be considered age six. My parents had a difficult time communicating between their two cultures. My mother coming from a small Polish family and my father coming from a very large well-known Albanian family. My mother would want to spend quality alone time with her husband and daughter after coming home from work, as my father wanted to entertain by playing a host to everyone to say the least. Between the difference of cultures breaking away at their relationship, a huge factor of trust came into play....

Too be continued...

Was it worth it?

Took my "lunch break" to the nail salon in the courtyard of where my offices are. I'm looking out into the courtyard and I see this man with a beard jump in the fountain. Not judging if he was poor, homeless, etc. He grabs some coins out of the water, and starts walking off. He takes look in his hands, keeps walking...and then turns around walks back and throws the change back.

Did he feel guilt? Or was it not enough?

I start thinking about what it's worth to take something that doesn't belong to you. In the end what does it all mean? You gain something but do you lose something because of that karma?

As my thoughts start going with what it all means....I see the guy come back again for more change.

Was it worth it for him to take something that didn't belong to him?

Mk.

Not neglecting!

Slowly getting life together and it's looking great! Apt is in order and should be completed by next week with all interior design. My room is so large that I don't even know what else to put in it! I can fit three queen size beds if I needed them. I have this crazy walk-in closet that I can't even fill up. EVEN WITH ALL MY STUFF! My sense of style has been changing too! In the past two weeks I managed to buy a white watch, hot orange flats (FOR WORK!), turquoise sheer button down, etc. I'm working with all these colors now!? I promised myself no rinestones though! That's where I draw the line. Another big change was the amount of exercise that I want to get into. Everyone knows I love to rollerblade, but to run? I mean there's obviously a reason my booty is that big! I started running every night after work along the bay area of my neighborhood. The view is breath-taking! The sky turns into gorgeous shades of purple, pink, and orange when the sun sets.

I cant wipe this smile off my face thinking about the decisions I have made, and my current life style change. I am blessed and thankful for everything that brought me here.

Mk.

Advice from a very wise friend

Found this buried deep in my wallet amongst reciepts galore! A post it note with kind advice that I share with all!! :)

Thank you wise one!

Put Yourself In The Other Person's Shoes...

LISTENING is an important skill that many of us take for granted. Have you ever explained a problem to someone and received an answer that showed that he or she didn't understand the problem at all?

A big part of listening goes beyond getting the main point and drawing conclusions. Listening empathetically, or with feelings, means putting yourself in the talker's position without getting emotionally involved.

Empathic listening precedes effective feedback because it goes to the root of the concern: the other person's perspective. Listening only to obtain information and form opinions means missing much of what the speaker is saying -- the emotions and intensity that make up real communication.

Believe it’s important to walk away from a situation with peace in every light. Taking the energy to dramatize an event, or dwell in the past about negativity is just a waste of time. Time that is better spent with people that make you happy, help you enjoy the one life you have to live, and help you grow as a person.

Hope we all take the time to listen a little more clearer. It makes that much of difference.

I love you all for your support as you know I am here for you at any hour of the day via phone! ;) I appreciate the advice and love. Please know I wouldn't trade anyone in!

Mk.

Driving after an hour of rain in Miami

But son of a bitch! I paid so much money in taxes in New York...and apparently should have been paying for it out here!! Seriously a accumulate a foot and half of rain like this is retarded.

When you love your best friend you are about to live with...

In reply to giving 1st and last month's rent tomorrow...

Okay. We really need to talk too.

I know that you mean well, and I know you have the best heart when it comes to my best intentions, but you need to grow up when it comes to certain actions you partake in. I want to say that Karma is a bitch because I was the same personality you are and probably still am a little bit.

I lost a number of friends because of my behavior. I was snappy, immature, highly opinionated, and flat out reckless and didn’t really care at all about things I said. I had close to a hand full of friends that just stopped communication with me because they didn’t need the bullsh*t and drama. My friend Serena flat out told me that I just need to grow up and in time will realize my faults. A few years later (3-4 to be exact) I have rekindled my friendships with friends and admitted to being an asshole. But sometimes I guess it takes time to realize that your actions really do affect the people you care about. I hope this is making a little sense for you?

I love you and truly want our living situation to work; however like I’ve told you before I’m at such a good peaceful place in my life right now that I don’t want anything to disturb that factor. You are the only negative light shining in, and I don’t know how to fix it because I’ve called you out on it way too many times. Last night I actually wanted to kill you, and I’m sure nights like that will only continue. I’m not trying to threaten you, just feeling a strong sense of really wanting to shake the sh*t out of you! I know you realize when you’re wrong because you’ll sweeten up the deal in your own way, but the damage is done. I want our apartment to be a place of peace. It is after all a home that I am making for myself in the city that I don’t know as well as I think.

I’m limited on my close friends here and truly believe I have two that I consider my best that I find comfort in. You being one, and don’t even judge me on the other. Please understand that I love you and the caring person that you are, but you need to mature in some ways with me, or we’re going to have a very big problem. Our living situation will end up damaging our friendship and who knows how long that will take to repair. Please let’s try to figure out now before it gets to a point of being not okay.

Let me know.

Mk.

Miami Vice

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=chonga

If you don't know, now you know! Fashion in Miami is a BIG fail. I'm trying to get back to New York to get some serious gear for the 90 degree heat! Do I really want bedazzled and graffi Ed Hardy type non-sense? Yeah well maybe...if I start hanging under some board walk with the crack heads!!?

Think some changes will def be full in affect when it comes to my character. Hoping to become more relaxed with this beach life. Rather than taking my weekends and spending $$$ on clothes and restaurants, I will hopefully be taking the sun in and getting crispy. Which by the way isn't looking cute since I'm peeling like an iguana!

Trying to be settled in with this new position and apartment by next week. Hoping for some super amazing friends to drive my stuff down!! Compensation will be great place to stay, dinner, and bottles and models! And in time I am sure the perks will become a lot better!

Decor of the apartment is already being discussed, and I def want the imput? Thinking Henri Bendel striped wall paper for dining room, white chic clean walls for living room, and the dark grey paint with white accents for my room.

Need to keep real in this joke of a city, so let's go chickas GET HERE!

Mk.

The Old Roommate Email....

"Did you happen to take one of the wine glasses with you by mistake?? There are only 5 instead of 6 all of a sudden..."

Really? But really is that so ness to email me with!!???

Mk.

2nd Day in Questioning

Dear Day Two of Miami:

Surprise! Surprise! I am at a point of questioning myself for "the right" decisions I should be making. I believe my whole attitude has changed so much over the course of two months, and have had the most incredible support from family and friends. Now I have made the strong decision of considering Miami, FL to be my "home". Leaving behind the best support system I could ever ask for! Instead of putting out my life on facebook, texts, emails, calls, gchats, etc, I am thinking about using this blog to let my true friends in on what's really good with me.

I will work on writing every day with thoughts, experiences, questions I need answered, inspirations, just about any and everything. I want to find myself in peace, and I want to find myself in all of your hearts on a regular basis. Please continue to remind me that I am from New York if I get to chongalicious in Miami!

Mk.