Please note that I respect my friend's privacy and would like to keep all names anonymous...
I didn’t forget about you! I promise. Just taking the right amount of time to collect my thoughts for you. Truly incredible how close our paths seem to be when it comes to the decisions we have made over the past year. I’ll respond to your paragraphs as you wrote them.
Your relationship! – WOW! Hello I remember you telling me about your boyfriend when we were in college! I can’t believe the turn of events! I managed to have a similar situation that has mended in to a friendship that I am truly blessed to have. Forgiving and forgetting is a triumph that takes a lot out of both parties. I am lucky to say that I still have him in my life. Trust is a hard characteristic to carry in every relationship. Once it’s broken, true love for the person you fell in love with allows trust to rise up again. I have to admit it’s sad to put so much trust into someone and have them turn on you like that. I am sorry to hear what happened.
I had someone once say to me…”It’s sickening to believe that human beings can treat each other so viciously in spirit and hurt one another’s emotions so deeply. It’s animalistic to say the least, yet not even animals treat each other this terribly…” That thought has been embedded in my mind ever since it was told two years ago. It truly is hard to believe how someone so close to you can be so cruel. You feel taken advantage of and left cold. It makes us stronger and wiser. Allows us to keep our guard up, and allows us to learn to trust the next person that enters our life. Whether it be a friendship or relationship with the opposite sex. A lesson well learned.
You deserve to be in a better place. And you do deserve to find out who you are meant to be. As you said living in the moment that you were in…you didn’t know who you were anymore. It happens to the best of us. It’s better to clear your mind and be brought to a more powerful place. You aren’t moving backwards by going back home. It’s nice to go back and be reminded who YOU are. Not who your friends are that are getting married at our age. It’s ridiculous to say the least. Yes, I’m sure being in a relationship is fantastic, but it doesn’t let you depend on YOU. And getting married at our age only allows us to become co-dependant on the other party. It’s not a life. Especially when we truly don’t have anything figured out for ourselves.
You are about 10 steps ahead of many of us with the addition of yoga in your life. The fact that you are TEACHING it is beyond anything! If you truly enjoy it. Take the time to get certified and go above your means to teach in a beautiful setting. The Cayman Islands are no different than where you are right now. (Well obviously different!!) Do it so I can visit!
Everyone is saying that they’re proud of me for this move. That is was a “plunge” like you mentioned, and that it did take courage to up and leave. Truth is I am still learning, and can only offer the advice I am getting from everyone around me. I'm used to being stubborn and dramatic with my thoughts. I believe for the first time I’m allowing people to have a say in my conversation. And finally listening. Think about the advice you would give your friend if in the same situation. You would probably give the best. Like I told you before. Write down your thoughts every day, and read them 7 days later. You won’t believe your words.
Mk.
